Athrun Zala

Nightmares

Wed, 10 May 2006 00:21:37 GMT

It's currently 2.30am. Sam's still asleep. Good. I really wouldn't have liked to have wakened him. I've more than imposed on him by staying here; to have disturbed him would be unforgiveable.

It's been weeks since I last had a nightmare, so much so that I was lulled into the belief that I was over everything. That the past is past, and I can finally shelve it aside. What a joke. The past is never over.

I don't want to forget anyone, I really don't, but neither do I wish to remembering only the things that make me hate all over again. It was hate that brought about war, and to truly bring about peace, we have to let go. It's just so hard to do, and I don't know if I can.

I wish things didn't have to be like this.

Work and Alex

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 10:24:39 GMT

[OOC: Last post, and then I'll have caught up with the timeline! This time this takes place a couple of days before Athrun runs into Kira and Lacus in the supermarket.]

It's been a couple of days since I first started working at Sam's company. Or to be really precise, it's been five days since "Alex Dino" has started to work at Sam's company.

Sam and I talked it about it, and we decided that it probably wasn't wise for me to use my real name within Aube. Since they aren't really going to check my documents (thanks to Sam's recommendation), it probably wouldn't be too hard for me to take on a new identity. So I started work as Alex Dino.

Initially, I was a little unused to things. The mad rush before deadlines, the meetings and the hours spent over revisions...there's so much to do, and so little time to do it all. Everything has to be done within a short space of time if things are to continue as planned. In fact, I've never had quite as much fun as I've had in the past few days.

Before I was all alone in my love for machine designing. If anything, the most that people did was to show appreciation for my creations. Now, for what could possibly be the first time in my life, people like me have banded together to work on machine designing. There we discuss all kinds of ideas and let our creativity run free. Should we add this function? Or maybe that bit could be modified slightly to give it better control. Is the machine energy efficient? Would tweaking it like that make it better? All this and more are part of our daily talk, and even in the short space of a few days, my respect for my co-workers has increased by leaps and bounds.

I kind of like my current life as Alex. Perhaps it won't last--after all, I'm only a temporary staff (as are most of the people there), but I'm glad to even have gotten a taste of this.

[OOC: So Athrun's finally gotten his job and seen it for the first time. Next up, the meeting with Lacus, Kira and Miri.

Moving on--Jobs

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 23:54:32 GMT

[OOC: Takes place one week before Athrun runs into Lacus and Kira at the supermarket.]

Over dinner today, Sam told me that his company was looking for engineers to help build machines. He suggested having me help out. After all, he says, that's right up my line. I told him I wasn't sure. In all honesty, despite the passage of yet another week, I've really not decided what I want to do in the future. Do I want to stay in Aube? Return to PLANT? I don't know; my mind's still a mess, and I really don't know what I ought to do.

I told him that I mayn't be staying very long, and it probably wouldn't be very becoming for me to take up a job if I can't do it for a long while. Sam assured me that it was fine; they only need someone to fill in for the moment (because of the sudden increase in demand in machines that are being used in rebuilding efforts). Because they're just struggling to keep up to date with the demand, positions offered might not be permanent anyhow. He doesn't think that they'll be too upset if I decide to leave midway.

So I told him that I'll try it out. Even now, I'm a little unsure. I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do, or if I'll be welcome there, but Sam tells me I'm just worrying too much. I guess I probably am.

[OOC: So Athrun has gotten a job (sortof). I'm intending to revoke his job later, though, or basically give him a very free and easy schedule so that he can move about Aube and talk to people/ see the sights. The next post will probably give some details on this (flesh it out more). After that, I'm considering planning a trip to visit Lacus and Kira, or maybe Cagalli if it's fine?

The only thing I recall being mentioned about a meeting between Kira, Lacus and Athrun is that they've met at a supermarket where Athrun has supposedly been shopping for three weeks (without meeting them). It just occurred to me that perhaps it's not the case that they've not had any contact for three weeks?

Of course, Athrun could consider meeting them, but maybe the meeting doesn't take place for some reason or another?

I know that it was mentioned that Cagalli has not been in contact with the rest, but I've been thinking of a scenario where Athrun considers meeting Cagalli, but doesn't because of some reason or another (maybe security? Maybe he changed his mind? Or maybe she doesn't happen to be in then?). Or maybe they could meet for a short while before their meeting it broken up, be it by the presence of other people, prior appointments or something like that. As long as they don't have too much time to catch up on, perhaps it would still fit into the current frame of things? <--is not certain

Anyhow, if anyone would like to discuss anything, please either stick a comment here or post at the OOC community? The only reason why I'm suggesting the alternative is lest it spams people who aren't directly involved]

Plans

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 04:10:42 GMT

OOC:This is supposed to take place two weeks before the supermarket thread.

It's unbelievable how quickly time flies. Without my knowing, I've already been a guest at Sam's house for a week. I'm starting to feel a little uncomfortable about crashing at his place permanently...after all, I'm sure his offer was only temporary. Maybe it's time that I should start considering going back to PLANT. It doesn't seem like I'm doing anything really useful here anyway...

I've got to admit, though, the thought of going back to PLANT really isn't appealing. I guess I partly dread going back because I hate the thought of having to explain to everyone why I defected. Most people, I know, would see it as an obvious case of betrayal. You turned your back on PLANT, they would say. How could you, when you saw for yourselves what the Naturals could do? How could you possibly ally yourself with Naturals?

Not long ago, those were the same questions that I asked of Kira. How could any Coordinator possibly turn their backs on their own kind and fight alongside Naturals? The idea, simply stated, is absurd.

But now that I've been stuck into that situation, I realise how complex the situation really is. It isn't a clear cut case of two plus two is four, and it most certainly isn't a case of "you have to do what you have to because of what you are." More than anything, Kira and Cagalli have showed me that it's possible to live in a world where Coordinators and Naturals can coexist, and it is because of this belief in that world that I joined Kira and the rest against both PLANT and Earth.

I guess through it all, I'm really just a coward inside. I really fear that I'll find someday that I was wrong to follow Kira as I had, just as I had been wrong to follow my father and his dreams. I don't want to have to face the possibility of having made such a grave mistake. I'm really just afraid.

But I don't want to be afraid forever. I don't want to stay and hide on Earth simply because I fear going back to PLANT even more. I probably should go back to PLANT soon. It's probably better to get things out of the way as soon as possible.

But for now, I think I'll stay a little longer to make sure things are getting back on track. There is, after all, much that needs to be done before Aube is back on track. Maybe I can't help very much, but I'd like to make sure that everyone is doing fine before I plan my return to PLANT. So I feel now, at any rate.

OOC:
Well, nothing really much has happened in that space of time, but more than anything, I wanted to try to bring out the reason why he's not back in PLANT yet (since he technically should be going there eventually). At this point in time, Athrun hasn't decided to stay in Aube yet, and is just on a visitor pass for the moment. ^^;

I intend to skip along the details so that I'll reach the time of the RP really quickly. The next post will probably involve getting a job, and then after that, I should be up to date with the RP. I'd like to finish up that thread soon if possible, so that I'll be able to move on to other activities.

There might be some stuff that I'm interested in putting in, though. Since Cagalli has been missing from the RP from the earlier part (and this non-appearance has been noted by Kira, Lacus and Athrun), perhaps Cagalli might want to capitalise on this and explain what has been going on on her end? And who knows, it might start something up?

Moving in

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 23:06:00 GMT

[OOC: This is supposed to take place three weeks before the main RP, to set the scene, so to speak. Please let me know if it's not appropriate so that I can get rid of it. Thanks.]

So I've finally got a place to stay. I was starting to think that I'd have to borrow Strike Rouge from Cagalli to sleep in, seeing how I don't really have a place to camp out at in Aube. Thankfully, however, it didn't quite come to that, and it's all thanks to Sam. I have to say, I'm quite surprised at the turn of things myself.

In all honesty, I have never expected Sam to be in Aube. Like many Coordinator families, Sam's family moved to PLANT a short while before Bloody Valentine. I was under the impression that Sam (if alive) would be someplace about in PLANT. Apparently I was wrong.

After leaving the Moon, Sam did move to PLANT, but that was only for a short while. Hostility between Coordinators and Naturals go back a long way, and most Coordinators weren't all that thrilled about having a Natural in their midst (Sam's mother is a Natural, although his father is a Coordinator). When Bloody Valentine occurred, the entire family fled to Aube for fear of his mother's safety. Aube, after all, is probably the only place that would accommodate both Naturals and Coordinators. And Sam has been staying here ever since.

Anyhow, the highlight (I suppose) is that I'm currently staying over at Sam's. I ran into him in Aube, and the next thing I knew, I'd gotten an invitation to camp out at his place--and all this, mind you, happened in the space of one day. I'm really rather surprised at how quickly things moved. Then again, Sam has always been very efficient. His slogan was that delay makes waste. He really hasn't changed all that much.

There's just the two of us here (he moved out on his own a little while ago, although he goes back to visit his parents sometimes), and it feels a little like old times. It's probably hard to believe it, but I've really missed him. Sam was the only person who was really interested in building micromodels in class, and we spent many a good hour discussing plans and tweaking our machines. It's really nice to see him again. Despite that, however, I'm feeling a little bad about imposing. I said as much, but Sam merely laughed it off. He says he's going to charge me rent in work. I'm to do the cooking, he says.

For his sake, I hope he has a strong stomach. The only things I really can make are the army rations. While sustaining, they really aren't known for their fantastic taste. Anyhow, the matter of accommodation seems set for now, until I get things worked out a little. Till then, I'll just let things play themselves out.

[OOC: Yes, Sam is an OC. ^^; But he's necessary in that sense, because I don't see how Athrun is going to find a place to stay in so short a time, and I didn't want him camping permanantly on Archangel. ^^; So yeah, he's there for that purpose.

I think I might be using him in future to give Athrun a push every now and then, and for that reason, I think I'll have to control poor Sam's character a little. For that reason, could I request that no one plays Sam? I know, he might be lacking a lot of development (since very little is known about him and all that), but developing his character might make it harder for me to control his character, so I'd prefer to avoid that if possible, else I'll have to bring in another OC, and before I know it I'll have an army. ^^;

I'm really sorry about that, and hope that it doesn't cause too much of a problem.

Of course, if it's better if I removed these details (since they aren't important), Sam will automatically disappear, so it's problem solved in that case, no? ^_^